It Can Work For You

I know it's not what you wanted, but you had to settle for something. You had to make some sense out of your life. But does it really make sense? Is this God's big plan for you? Don't think like that. It has to be. It has to be or he isn't real, and you're too scared to face that.

Please don't leave me things that feel good.

Dogs are better than human beings because they know but do not tell.

Emily Dickinson

Could This Be

"You are a better person than him, and I have faith that you won't hurt me, and hopefully I won't hurt you."

I still get very sad when I think about Pig. I still feel guilty for leaving. I still miss him so fucking much. He knew how to be happy. I still don't. He had so much more to give. Why did he have to go? The doctors didn't even know what was wrong with him. What makes me think I could have saved him? They say he was depressed, that he was giving in. I can't bear that thought. If Pig couldn't fight it, I can't either. I still hate myself.

Liza

Sitting in her toy bin, surrounded by a new family and warmth and kindness. She stares at the wall, but her head is high and proud and confused. Cold cement and those goddamn bars. She went blind behind those bars. She will never see anything else again. She will never forget the horror of cold steel in her uterus.

Untitled Prose 9

Warm breath crests over my neck while dead fingers dig under your shoulder blade as if to rip the bones from your body. I just want a piece of you when I wake up.